Monthly Archives: March 2009

Afterthoughts

I’ve been thinking about yesterday’s entry, and I’ve had a few additional thoughts…but mainly, a question:

How do we live in the real world and the intuitive/Spirit world simultaneously?
Previously, it has always been thought of as two mutually exclusive worlds.  EITHER you were a suit-wearing pencil pusher, who enjoyed eating out at restaurants, buying the latest car and clothes, attending sporting and arts events; OR you were a hippy-dippy tree hugger, wearing Birkenstocks and practicing meditation for hours on end, while eating vegetarian organic foods – before that was popular.  So….what about now? What about today? Are these worlds still mutually exclusive? Or, is it possible that we can live comfortably and peacefully in both at the same time.  Honoring our inner spirit, while eating sushi?  Centering ourselves, while watching basketball from the 4th row? Listening to our intuition while shopping for the latest pair of shoes?
Yesterday, I reverted to the “old” way of being: “Either-Or.”  I was EITHER in the intuitive mind, OR I was in the material (human) one.  I recognized this, and today I am expounding on it.  This has been my path – my journey:  To marry the two worlds, as so many are now doing (or longing to do), to find that one complete whole, where the physical supports the spiritual, which supports the emotional, which supports the mental, which supports the physical….and on and on.  The synthesis of the many parts becoming one complete, content and peaceful whole.  It is possible.  And it takes a lot less effort than one would think.  Mostly, it occurs in remembering, and being aware.  Awareness brings forth the possibility of the union.  
But how do we become aware?  Well…..that’s a thought for another day.  For now, let’s just do our best to remember.  Young children do it every day.  They remember what it is to play with a Barbie, and honor their physical and spiritual bodies all at the same time.  They don’t know they’re doing it – but when we watch them, we can see it, effortlessly pouring forth.  So, today will be a day of remembering that I am not an “Either-Or”….but I am one whole; honoring all my many parts, and joining them together in a happy and contented union. Synthesis. 
In love and light,
Martina

The Start of a New Path

It’s Monday morning, the start of a new week — and since this is the first of many entries, the beginning of a new chapter in this journey we call life.  I spent much of Sunday working on my new book, synthesizing my myriad thoughts to try to create a compelling narrative.  It was a great day and I was able to pour a lot of intuition and wisdom into the computer screen and keyboard.  However, due to the contrast of living in the intuitive world (writing) and the real world, by the end of the day — I was as far away from practicing what I preach as I could possibly have been. 

Patience, love, thoughtfulness, gratitude….they were like foreign languages to me.  I only knew the languages of frustration, aggravation, hurt, fear and loneliness.  Why?  Because I allowed it to be that way.  I made a choice to walk away from myself, and my own wisdom, and walk towards my old habits and reactions.  It wasn’t necessarily a conscious choice, but it was definitely a decision.  Somewhere along the way I had to have decided to abandon that which I’ve learned and know to be true – in order to feed my ego, and revert to old behaviors.  And in the process, I hurt others and myself.
Today, I’m dealing with the hangover from this decision.  The nausea and pounding headache that so frequently follows a night of over-indulgence in all things toxic.  It’s a nasty hangover, one which has me yearning for a bit of the “hair of the dog” — but I know, deep down, that that will only perpetuate the problem and set me up for another hangover tomorrow.  Instead, I am hanging out in the no-man’s-land of indecision.  Neither reactionary, nor responsive.  It’s not the best place to be, but it’s a step in the right direction.  Hopefully, by tonight, I will have given myself enough pause, to allow my inner wisdom to bubble back up to the surface and shine through…..Bringing me back into a place of authenticity and integrity.
In love and light,
Martina